Our baby is 6 months old!!! I mean – when did this even happened?? All six months flew by in a second. He’s such a little cutie pie and (almost) always in a great mood. Every day he learns something different and it’s so wonderful to be privileged to observe that all so closely.
If you would ask me to told you in one short sentence how does being a mother feels like, I would say: “Wonderful, yet most hardworking thing ever.” I won’t lie to you. I never did and it would be very stupid to start now. Being a mom is one hell of a job (I mean this on a nicest way possible). Because there is no real pause and no real days-off – you’re body might be away, but your mind is always on a mom-mode, always thinking about your precious baby. If you want to do it right, you must work for it harder than you can even imagine. Happy kid is your reward. Clean house is what is expected. But does it really happen?, on a daily base I mean. No. Not a chance. I try. I do my best. But there is always some part of the house that takes a shorter end and it’s left uncleaned. That’s just the way it is. Deal with it. At first you’ll think that you can do it all. But soon you’ll realize that you just can not have it all. A happy baby (+ a husband, of course), clean house, all business things done … unless you’re some kind of super-woman. Than this is a whole different story!
I know me. And I know that I will never be 100% satisfied with only one role in life. I can’t be “just someone’s wife,” or “just a business woman,” not even “just mom.” I just CAN NOT. I need it all mixed together. I love spending days with this little munchkin, but on the other hand I’m super happy when I know I have the best babysitter (his grandmas are amazing!) taking care of this little man, while I got to spend few hours for work purpose only. Usually it isn’t just work, since my productivity is at it’s highest when I’m in a clean and inspiring environment, which means I will do some cleaning up at that time too, but we won’t talk about this at the moment. Another story, that is. And I enjoy working more than ever. I need this, because I feel that now I have so much to show you guys. And new projects and collaborations are just popping up, so it’s pretty crazy sometimes. But it feels so good to be productive and successful, that I won’t stop until I die.
If you would ask me what I miss the most I would have to take a second and think about it … ok I did. I miss the ability to be your own boss again. Because truth to be told, once you have a baby he or she owns your little a*s*s. You’re not able to decide on your own when or where will you go, there is a whole lot of planning and compromising and when you think you have all figure out B-A-M! News flash! – this is not your show anymore, your needs and wishes comes long after his or hers.
Planning a date can sometimes go so smoothly, but the again – sometimes when you want it and need it the most it’s just not happening. And you feel depressed for a second or two – but when you see your little smoochy baby and it’s all forgotten. 🙂
Don’t make any mistake – I love being a mom. And this is nothing less than a blessing. But I just feel that I need to be honest with you about this kind of things, because sometimes women naively expect everything to be picture perfect. You see all those pretty baby/mom/family/clean home pictures on blogs, Facebook or Instagram and you expect nothing less from yourself. And this puts you in a negative mood for no good reason. Simply because you believe it. But each one of us is having a bad day, a messy kitchen, grumpy baby, husband that doesn’t do things the way you want him to, someone that gets on your last existing nerve … since this all part of it. You can’t choose only good moments in life. You can’t always be little miss perfect, since no one is. Lower your criteria and be a bit more objective next time you’re drooling over someone else’s “amazing and most definitely perfect” life. I do it to from time to time, I stare at some Instagram photo thinking “what an amazing life,” but then I realize that there is so much more behind that photo. No one has it all and we ladies often forget that.
Be proud of yourself every time you do something great for you or your family – everything counts! You cooked a delicious mean, you cleaned your office/kitchen/bathroom, you took a quick nap after an exhausting morning, you put your make-up on, you told your husband how much you love him, you talked with your friend way to long on the phone, but that’s just the thing you needed, you bought new clothes for your baby (never mind he has way to much things already), you went hiking after a long long time, you watched an movie amazing in your husbands arms, you WROTE a very very long blog post instead of going to bed on time … 😉 Be PROUD! You deserve to be proud of yourself, because as I said: we’re doing one hell of a job on a daily bases and there is no one on this planet that could do it better than you. Since only YOU knows how it feels to carry your baby for nine months and what YOU went through to be able keep him/her in your arms now. And that’s what’s all about. LOVE. That unconditional love that only a mother understands. So yes, it’s hard, but so worth it!
Have the most amazing day ever,